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Name: Nate
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Lancaster
Birthday: 3/16/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Pc's, Technology, Photography, Pool/Billiards/Darts, Partying, Drinkin, Music (Mostly Rock some country and some other stuff), Cars, Drawing/Sketching, um yeah what else do i have time for, oh my friends.....boondock saints, and just anything that can feed my brain
Expertise: Computers/Technology. I am not a Genius and i dont know everything about anything and i dont pretend to. I know a substancial amount and im willing to share any information i have. I also am known to my closest friends as the relationship guru. The only problem i have is well ever hear that expression those who cant do teach....I have bad luck with relationships, even though i do my best to make them work, just bad luck with women, oh and sleep...im good at sleep...lol
Occupation: Computer related
Industry: Computers (Hardware)
Message: message me
AIM:  TransAmRida86
MSN: nuerdaz@hotmail.com
Member Since:
12/15/2004
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| Have you ever wondered in life if theres light at the end of the tunnel....do all these people really know about what theyre talking about? or are they just another lost soul walking along the way?
From time to time I see the light they talk about so much....but every time i reach it i just find someone else standing there with a flashlight beconing oncomers to come join their misery or to fuck with my head....
I feel like just another oyster in life without a pearl inside...
its winter again and everyones talking a little slower...a lil older...not knowing where the darkness really ends...
I have no more faith...I have found that one person in life who when Im around i feel again...i have hope and im alive...Life with her is so great and beautiful and wonderful....i could plummet to eternity as long as i had her near i wouldnt care what that meant....I can live without her but I feel empty inside again....Ever since I lost Pavi I have felt this void....and i was trying to fill it and thought i felt things for other girls before.....but ive realized thats all i was trying to do is fill the void...but i cant ever do that....I find myself more often than not just walking stumbling through my mind searching for answers...looking for where i went wrong...I thought i finally had something again in my life worth all the pain...all the sorrow...the lonely nights and painfull days...
sometimes all we need is a little hope...but hope is blind and i cant help but see...
For everyone who has found happiness and love in life i am proud, and commend you....for those of us who are destined to walk the path alone...and just hold our chins high for others to see that blank figure walking off in the sunset so that they know they can do it....i commend you...you are my guiding lights....you share my pain...my thoughts of life...I once was one of the onlookers....before that i walked amoung you....and today i walk again..sitting on a mountain top seeing with all the clarity of life my youth and my knowlege...granted i do not know what this life has in store for me ahead....I am that roll of thunder chasing the wind....I can feel it...I am just hoping for that sunny day to come again...
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| where do you go when you are falling for someone but you cant tell them....who do you talk to? what do you say? how do you tell them? What do you do when they are a friend whom you have flirted with before....and she has flirted with the idea of you and her being together......shes as beautiful as an angel....as smart of a person as ive ever seen....shes got the same sense of humor that i do...she loves music as much as i do....she understands me without saying a word...i understand her the same....she feels down and i make her smile...i feel alone and she makes me feel warm and wanted....shes falling into being my everything.....theres only one problem
her bf of 4 years just left her for another women...he was cheating on her....i understand this too well as most of you know....i want to be there for her and be her friend...i want to show her love exists and she has the strength to keep going....but i dont want to be just her friend...and i dont want to be the rebound guy....i want to show her love...and know its going to last....how do i know when is too long to wait? how do i know when is too soon?....secretly i just want to hold her and kiss her and tell her life will be ok and share love with her....but she still loves him....and will for a while...i just dont know what to do....
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When she touches me....its like she touches my soul....my heart....and the most
special part about me....i miss that.....i wish i could have that love again in
my life....i dont know if i will ever....but one can hope
sometimes the most important moments in life is when were standing
alone....proud, strong and true....
country roads just heal....they tell the truth....they keep you from living
a lie....the love....and they are always there...sometimes life just gets crazy
and you loose your way...dip down in that hollow....twistin round' that
bend....but at the end of the road theres always some place you call home...an
open field....a country thicket....a creek to lead you home....old train tracks
on a mountains side....down the revine and across the valley...it holds us true
and holds us home....its country truth...perfect circle life....and a perfect
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| So yeah sorry i havent been on here in a long ass time readers....ive been busy with school and parties and work and all....yeah so life is taking all these crazy twists and turns and ive been making some bad decisions again.....so yeah i dunno what to do....im ready to say fuck life....but at the same time whenever i do i think about my friends.....you guys are all that keeps me together at the end of the day....My few bro's I have up here....and the girls up here in willpo.....i love all of ya.....and well my broz back home you guyz know your my family and my sistaz back in the big Lanc Lanc....i love ya girls you my baby girlz......So yeah theres a couple girls that i like were gunna run em down real quick and you'll see why my love life is fucked....Girl A I got drunk and hooked her up with my bro......Girl N doesnt have that interest in me i think....if she does i dont know and shes way outa my leuge.....Girl J i found out has some shit i dont wanna get envloved with....Girl E i found out has been around the block.....ALOT.....hell shes the fucking villege bicicle and i aint doin that again...im good on herpagonacyphalis.....Girl S is pretty much just lookin for some fun.....Girl B doesnt want a relationship like that with anyone or me.....Girl AN is pretty much not goin anywhere im not her type Girl B2 is my buddies ex and i cant do that and finally Girl L turned into a huge bitch....fuck all this shit is what i say.......I really wish girl N would be the girl.....i dunno y but i have a thing for her accent.....i think thats what got me about the last girl from that region....we know about eachothers home town....were well traveled....she actually is from near where im from.....killer accent....knows the same culture and yeah..... | | |
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